Friday, February 8, 2008

Nothing is Too Hard

"Sun Stand Still
Oceans Part,
Nothing is too hard, nothing is too hard.
Refuge for the weak, Strong and Mighty,
Nothing is to hard, nothing is too hard."

"We Believe, We Believe that You are GOD, Nothing is too hard."
"Sun Stand Still" - Elevation Band

So I find my self at the end of another journey, with more questions than answers of course.
But I have learned a lot from this journey. Bittersweet, but sweeter still because of the Revelations that God has given me, Revelations that have changed my perspective yet again about this crazy life.

So looking back on this situation there are a lot of things that could have gone differently. Some for the good, and some for the worse. But God has guided me to this exact place because of the Lesson. This profound payoff, at the end of this journey, was worth it. The point as Pastor always talks about is in the Process. Yes, I can say that even though my heart is a little heavy, and I feel like life has just hit me up side of the head with a two by four, that this process was 100% worth it.

The steps and the measures I have gone to to try to let God guard my heart in this matter have really had an impact on my life. I have learned more about letting God guard my heart, and the steps that He wants me to take in order to guard my heart, and to strive towards Cross.

Yes, I am a little beaten down by life, and this world. I am a little beaten down by the steps in this process, and the choices I have made.
Yes there is a part of me who wanted this thing to work out the way I wanted it to. But I know that sooner or later, it would not have worked out because that was not part of God's Plan. And I see that more clearly now than ever. And I am little bummed out, to be perfectly human.
BUT I am so in awe of God's Grace. I am just amazed that I see how clearly it would not have worked out. And that fact does not bother me. I am so happy that God's will happened. I am happy for the fact that I was able to see it God's way. So yes there is a contradiction, I am a little bummed out that it didn't work the way I wanted it to, but yet happier because I know that was not God's plan for me.

God is restoring me. Man, He is the best. Jesus is my savior, and He is def pouring out His mercies, and Love.

ha, I mean wow check this out

1 Peter 5:10
The God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast."

I now know more than ever about going about this situation, and how to set up boundaries, and to let Christ guide me more than ever. I am so excited because I am grasping more than ever, how Christ wants me to live, and to walk with Him. In order to do that, I have to let Him lead me more and more each day.

I can keep moving forward now. I can feel the presence of Christ right now, and I can feel Him in my beating heart. The very depths of my soul cry out with joy because I have just completed a journey, and another one is now beginning.

I do not know what all this journey has in store for me, but I do know that I am very excited to see what God has planned for me. I am very excited to learn, and to grow.

1 comment:

*j-lay-lay* said...

I am glad you can see that. It's not easy, I know. I'm struggling with this whole thing, too. I'm praying for you all the time.