being in the vein of God...words cannot express

WOW... My words, and all my tears, and the shaking of my body cannot express fully how it feels to be in the vein of God right now. The only reason I am in this state, is because I got on my knees, repented, and praised God tonight. I love this feeling. God is here, and He is soo mighty. He could squash me, snuff out my candle, or tottaly ignore me. BUT HE DOES NOT. HE LOVES ME.
I am soo in awe, these tears of joy, wow.

My God is awesome
He raises me back up when I fall,
He seeks me, and finds me when I am lost.
He leads me to the well of living water.
My God has rescued me from my despair and my shame.
My Jesus died for me, so that I could live in abundance.
My Jesus blesses me, and comforts me in my times of despair.

I have been listening to all these songs tonight, and I have found total Peace.
It seems as if God has just stopped time, just so that me and Him can have this awesome worship session. So intimate, so overwhelming.
I cannot stand, I must sit, and get on my knees, and just let it all come out.
I cannot help but to sing praises to my King.

Hallelujah Jesus, Hallelujah!!

Chris Tomlin
In the secret, in the quiet place
In the stillness You are there.
In the secret, in the quiet hour I wait,
Only for You,'cause I want to know You more;

I want to know You,
I want to hear Your voice
I want to know You more.
I want to touch You,
I want to see Your face
I want to know You more.

From Phil Whickham's song I Will Wait For You There:
And with outstretched arms
I will sing out melodies
And my beating heart
Will pour out a symphony
Hallelujah’s in the morning
Hallelujah’s in the night
I will wait for you as long as I have life

From Kutless: All Who Are Thirsty:

All who are thirsty
All who are weak
Come to the fountain
Dip your heart in the stream of life
Let the pain and the sorrow
Be washed away
In the waves of his mercy
As deep cries out to deep (we sing)

Come Lord Jesus come

Gang, God is calling out to us, He is pleading with us.
It only takes a moment with Jesus, to change your life forever.
Amidst all the chaos and confusion right now, I have peace. I did not earn it with good works, I was given it by God's Grace and Mercy. People search their whole lives apart from Jesus to find this Peace.
I dkn where you stand with Jesus, but just ask Him to come into your heart right now! And if you already have Him in ur heart, just keep asking for this Peace.
I promise you that if you let Jesus into your heart, you will be changed forever.

From the deepest parts of my soul, I sing out to Christ.

wow, these chills, are just so amazing. The Holy Spirit of God is right here, right now.


I just pray that all of you and your loved ones will have moments where time seems to stop, and it is just you and Jesus. It all comes off, everything is laid out on the table.

1 Corinthians 4-9

4I always thank God for you because of his grace given you in Christ Jesus. 5For in him you have been enriched in every way—in all your speaking and in all your knowledge— 6because our testimony about Christ was confirmed in you. 7Therefore you do not lack any spiritual gift as you eagerly wait for our Lord Jesus Christ to be revealed. 8He will keep you strong to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. 9God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful.

Divine Romance

WoW, I cannot express how happy I am today. These past couple of days have been nothing short of amazing. Great friends, Great family, and an AWESOME GOD!!!!

But tonight, I got some prayers answered. Miracles happened, and revelations from God came pouring into my heart tonight.

I got more direction tonight, and it is just so overwhelming.

"I rejoice in this Divine Romance"

Tonight, I got to talk about bounderies with a friend of mine. "But Nick, boundaries suck" No, not these boundaries. As Pastor said, "You protect what you value." I value my heart, and what God wants for me. And I value my friend's heart and what God wants for my friend as well.
I cannot go into detail because it is very very personal, but God gave me and my friend a chance to talk about setting up a system where we are dependent on God in our friendship. How awesome is that gang!! I mean we both were upfront and honest about God being in control and keeping Christ the focus of our lives and our friendship.

so why is it soo special?
Because I have been praying for more friendships where God is the focus. Friendships that are so Christ charged. Friendships where I can feel the heartbeat of God..etc you get the point.

Sure I want to hang out, and have a great time, and do random crazy stuff. I mean C'mon, I'm crazy lol.
But I also want God to be glorified in all those things. I mean I don't sit around and have to have deep talks about God all the time, but I want to talk about the wonders He is doing in my life and my friends lives only by His Sheer Grace. I want to have insight in my friend's lives, and listen to the insight they give me about my life. Fellowship of the Believers (Acts).

Of course more happened, but God was there! I could actually feel Him being there, leading the way.

I guess the point is that, God puts people in your life for a reason. We do not always know why, but God is using that person to bless you and help you out. And you are doing the same thing for htat person.
But we have to focus on Christ, and His will, not ours. The more we give our friendships to Christ, the more amazing things He will do in our friendships.
I am learning more and more about that each day, especially this week!

I do not know where God is leading, but I am soo excited because I know He will def have something totally mind blowing to show me in that friendship. I mean haha He is God lol.

I just encourage you talk with your friends and ask them if they are praying for their friendships. It's cool to pray for a person who is your friend do not get me wrong. But pray about how can Specifically bless your friendship with that person. Ask Him.....What can God do in that friendship that will Glorify Him and bless yours. God always has something cool up His sleeve, and He is ready to take it out and lay it on the table, but why not unlock it through prayer?

I do not fully know the path that this friendship will take, but I DO KNOW that God is in control, and that the more I focus on Him, the better the path will be.
Just because we do not see God's plan up front, doesn't mean that He is stiffing us out of something awesome. It just means that He will reveal it to us when the time is right. We have some growing to do before we see the reason and learn to be patient.

And right now I am content and excited about where things are. I mean yeah, nuff said haha...


I have seen the reason why certain people have been put in my life in like 2 minutes, others, it takes years.

I am just soo excited about the talk I had tonight because it really answered some prayers, and God really showed me the path that I must take.
SUPER EXCITED!!!!

PRAISE GOD!!

SONG OF THE NIGHT!! "DIVINE ROMANCE" BY PHIL WHICKHAM.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=hGYadYHnQCU&feature=PlayList&p=B12A019ACC14A961&index=10

"I Will Wait for You There"

So it breaks my heart to see my friends struggle with their faiths. I just breaks my heart to see them so broken, ashamed, alone, and angry. I know I feel those feelings when I struggle with my faith.
They question God, and His will for them. I am not saying that is wrong. I say that is right but we should do so in prayer. We should lay all things out on the table before the Lord.
We should rejoice in our suffering as it says in Romans 5:1-5. But sometimes that is just hard, and we don't really want to do that.

But if there was one thing I did right today, it was encouraging a friend of mine to seek God in prayer and really ask Him to show her, and guide her. I know that God will deliver her, and lead her in the right path, but only if she asks Him to.

I am so excited to know that we have a God who loves us so much, and who wants the very best for us. But it saddens me because I know that we are sinful by nature, and we like to rebel against God. It is eaiser to rebel, than it is to surrender all to Christ.

Think of it this way: so we wait for God in the midst of our struggles, and sometimes it really really sucks, but when God saves us, it is oh soo sweet, and we finally understand why we went through what we did!! Praise God.

Here is a link to Phil Whickham's "I Will Wait For You There."
This Video really made my night!!!

I will wait for You there
Down on my knees where I met You
Give You all of my cares
Find a grace to hold onto now
I’m calling for You

I really love that part, but oh the whole song is awesome.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wc4603p8bIE&feature=PlayList&p=B12A019ACC14A961&index=11


So continue on gang, continue to seek God, and lay all things at the foot of the Cross. We have a Jesus who loves us oh so much. With the Lord's help we shall overcome.

Life is Crazzzzyy!!! but God is soooo GOOD!!!

so guys, it has been a while, life is just soo crazy right now as most of you college people can relate.

I may not be the best person in the world, and I do get alot of things wrong, and I do not always folllow through with what I promise. There have been some things that I just suck at right now.
I can't seem to get my life in order. But I know that God is working on my heart, and for that I do have peace.

I owe one of my friends money, and another one owes me money. I have not written my friend, and I really need to do that. I need to study more, and I need to work more to pay for rent, and gas, and heat, and pay my friend back.
I, I, I, I,....... Where is God? I cannot do all these things on my own, and I suppose that the more I try to do things on my own, and not let God help me, the deeper into trouble and despair I will go.

Maybe you guys are going through the same tings. Idkn. But I do know one thing. God is giving me peace. A peace that He is there, and that He will guide me, but I have to do my part by letting Him lead me!

haha Okay lets change it up now!

I have had a great day today. I usually don't have bad ones, becuase I try not let the few negative aspects, turn into the focus of my day. I try to lay it all out and run hard after God.

I got to play with the after school kids again lol! That really made my day! I was the super-vilian and they were the good guys who tried to drown me! It was great, Chad and I threw those kids up in the air, and spun them around in the water. I learned that I could do a flip underwater with two kids on my back.

I think we can learn a lot from Children. Their innocence and their passion to just live in the moment and fun can be applied to my walk. Why should I get all worked up about the past, when it is over and done with? God has saved me, and raised me from those things.
I should just focus on today and what God wants me to do.

okay so I am rambling

But guys, THE PAST IS OVER, WE ARE NEW CREATIONS IN CHRIST IF WE HAVE PLACED OUR TRUST IN JESUS.

2 Corinthians 5:17 (New International Version)

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!


as Jason Upton sings
"Who the SON set free, is free indeed." from FREEDOM!!

AMEN.
So am I free from the struggles of life... heck no. But I am free from my old dead self. I have a new self who can overcome because I have Jesus in my heart, and I run so hard after Him.
You are Free if you have Christ gang. So let us rejoice in our sufferings and continue to run hard after Christ. I know I am!!

ROMANS 5:1-5
1Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we^[a]have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we^[b] rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. 3Not only so, but we^[c] also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

AMEN and AMEN!!!

recap of this past's week...

Sorry for all you avid Nick Cook bloggers lol hahahahahaha
I am sure there are close to none.
sorry for not have blogged this past week.
Between the 12page paper, the presentation on that class about my paper... which by the way it was a rd blah. The exam I had on friday, the lack of sleep. The work schedule.... I have not had really anything laid on my heart to blog about. well... thats public haha.

Okay, so Thank God for saving my butt today from these crazy fast drivers!!
Thank You Jesus, for just Your Grace this week as I have messed up, and failed you again and again. I am sure glad You are there to help me focus on my school work!!!

Just stop gang, just stop and be quiet and listen to God. It is soo hard with all these distractions, but who said it would be easy. I have not done that as much as I should, and these are the times that we really need to seek God. I know I do.


Handel's Messiah was amazing tonight, and It did my heart good to see and hear the whole thing!

Derek, Jenna, Barton, Skip, Kim, and all the others did a super duper job tonight! Glory to God!!!

I want to leave you with this link.... it takes a minute to get into the song, but I love this song by David Crowder.
It gives me the Holy Spirit Chills...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3n2B6T6uFIQ

night

Im gonna go get down on my knees and Pray.
I have lots to be thankful about, and to pray to God about. I have lots of friends who need God's touch in their lives, and the lives of loved ones.

But h

Bringing Sexy Back

So it has almost been a whole year since I had a gf or dated someone. Praise God!!
But I believe God is really leading me in the direction of courtship. Now I do not really know who it is yet haha, but I know Christ is setting me apart in order to pursue courtship. I still have lots more to learn, but here is a reflective moment.
So listening again to "Bringing Sexy Back" to the fourth talk.

Pastor and His wife talked about 4 points or qualities that every person should find in their future spouse.

I am only going to sum them up for you, and talk about the importance to me. Check out the sermon to get the picture if this sounds like rambling, and it probably will be!!

http://www.elevationchurch.org/
1) click under Previous Sermons on the bottom right
2) after the new window pops up click Bringing Sexy Back
3) click on Get a Job, Get a Life, Get a Wife and enjoy!!


Things I want in my Future Wife:

1) MY BEST FRIEND
a) Without a doubt she needs to be my best friend. Your best friend is always there for you. Your best friends knows you the best, and if my marriage is going to work, then my wife needs to be my best friend so that I can seek guidance from her when I need it.

2) SOMEONE WHO IS PASSIONATELY PURSING GOD! SOMEONE NOT "PERFECT" BUT PROGRESSING
a) someone who I can just randomly ask, What is God doing in your life, what is God teaching you? I want her to be able to answer me without fishing for stuff, or coming up with some vague Sunday school answer.
b) someone who I know that hears from God. I want my wife to be someone who I know trusts God and listens to the guidance He gives her.
To me THE MOST ATTRACTIVE THING ABOUT A WOMAN IS HER WALK WITH THE LORD!!! NOT HER OUTWARD BEAUTY. That is important, but lets face it, a lot of people are hot on the outside, but cold on the inside.
c) I want a girl who is modest, and not totally obsessed with her self image. Now I want a woman who can take pride in the way she looks and how she presents her self, don't get me wrong, but not a woman who dresses to impress others in order to really feel good about her self. That is just blind vanity, and that is setting your self up for failure and disaster. It is okay to bum it now and again, and I think thats cool cuz I do it alot haha.

As Pastor said "What you attract them with, you attract them to."

3) A woman who makes me better.
I want a woman who can tell me straight up what I am doing wrong. I need a woman who can confront me, and challenge me. I need my wife to be able to come along side of me and help me see my faults, and help me come up with Biblical ways in which to deal with those faults. I am def not perfect, and there is always room for improvement.
But if my wife cannot be up front with me (something that only best friends are the best at) then how is our marriage going to work? Answer: It won't.

Proverbs 27:17
As iron sharpens iron,
so one man sharpens another.

4) a woman who has a vision.
I want my wife to be able to have a vision about what God wants her to do with her life, and how to best serve God.
I want a woman who just doesn't talk about it, but actually does it, and sees it through.
And I want to get behind her, and support her while she is carrying out her vision even though I may not fully understand her vision, or have even have the best advice.

Her Vision should be Christ focused.

AS YOU LISTEN TO THE SERMON, YOU CAN PICK UP THAT THESE ARE NOT GENDER SPECIFIC. PASTOR AND HIS WIFE HOLLY BOTH GO BACK AND FORTH AND TEACH YOU HOW THESE 4 THINGS CAN BE USED FOR THE GUY AND THE GIRL.

Remember Marriage is not all about happiness, its about Holiness.
If it is Holy, then it will be so happy. Isn't that true for a lot of issues regarding Christ haha. I think So.

**Ephesians 5:25-33 kind of love!**
I WANT TO LOVE AND SERVE MY WIFE AS CHRIST DID THE CHURCH!!


Hope you enjoyed my blog!
Please Check out the Whole Series to learn more about where I am coming from!
I want my vision to be God's Vision.

ALSO MY PREVIOUS BLOG CONTAINS SOME BOUNDARIES AND WHAT NOT :)
Amen and Amen

:)

Boundaries

Also while I am at it, lol Boundaries.

EPHESIANS 5:25-33 KIND OF LOVE IS THE GOAL HERE FOLKS, BUT I HAVE TO BE ABLE TO PRESENT THAT BY SETTING UP BOUNDARIES.

Along with the 4 things mentioned in the previous blog:
1) to get to know her in group settings before we move on to more of the one on one settings.
2) To not talk on the phone for hours and hours about intimate details of our hearts before we know that God is blessing our friendship and telling us to move toward courtship
3) not to be out late at night by ourselves because that is just stupid to me and dangerous.
4) to be able to worship together in church, but to keep Christ as the focus.
Later on down the road, I want to be able to serve in the same church, and raise a family in that church.
5) VERY IMPORTANT: SEXUAL PURITY!!! I do not know how she will feel about kissing, but I know my self pretty well... To not kiss until we are married. At least till we are engaged, but I do not want to set my self up for failure.
6) to be able to say I LOVE YOU when we are engaged. I do not want to say those words without God's Blessing, and the full confirmation that the woman I am courting is in fact my wife. I want to be able to be free enough without any doubt to back up it up when I say those words to her.
6) She has to be willing to pray about our friendship, and our courtship. She has to be willing to know that God has a perfect plan, and that means praying during the bad times as well as the good for God's perfect will to be done. That should be the main focus in prayer: God's will be done in our relationship. Even if it means that we are not meant to be together.

7) okay so you may think I am crazy, but here is one that is important to me:
To be able to workout with my wife. I am very athletic and active. It does not really matter to me what we do, as long as we do something. I have dated girls who are not wired in the mindset of working out and they think it is a waste of time. But working out is me, and that was how I was raised. I love it. I also get to spend time with God and mediate while I work out.

I think those are the main Boundaries/criteria right now that God has placed on my heart.
I have more, but those I will talk about with my future spouse and my accountability partners.

I can't really apologize for being upfront, and bold about these issues. I cannot apologize for seeming overbearing, but hey, this is my life, and my heart haha.
I am sorry if you take offense and think that I am a raving lunatic.
Please get over that and get your head out of the sand.

GOD BLESS! :)

What will you do after thanksgiving?

I cannot stop thinking for those who are overseas, in broken homes, alone, homeless, and lost

What will we all do after Thanksgiving is over?
Did you know that Thanksgiving is one of the highlights for these people?
I am learning more and more of that as I do outreach.
It is heart wrenching, and it makes me cry. I cry out to God because it is not fair that these people cannot have what most of us have.
It is our job to reach out to these people and give them the best dang Thanksgiving that they can have despite their situations.

but why just Thanksgiving?
Why wont more people reach out, and pour out their hearts year round like they do during the holidays?
It is good that we do this during the holidays, but is it more for our satisfaction?
Is it to ease the guilt of having it soo good?
You bet that is why alot of people do this. But God gets glorified in this, but why not do this kind of thing year round.

My homeless guys, and many others are going to go right back to fighting for themselves, and being alone on Friday while we are out shopping for Christmas.

What will you do after Thanksgiving?
Will you reach out to the needy, the poor, the sick, the lame, the def, the mute and those in prison?

I say this country needs to change, and go back to the Gospel.
I am no saint, I need to continue to do this as well, because I am like everybody else who is obsessed with themselves.

Sorry for ranting, but I needed to get this off my chest and heart.

I hope all of you have a Safe and Blessed Thanksgiving, I really do.
I hope God Blesses each and every one of you, and that you will have a blast!

Praise God!!!

If you have not gotten the REMEDY from DAVID CROWDER then you need to!!
It is a great CD
The Last Song "Surely We can Change"
talks about what we must do.



Where there is pain
Let there be grace
Where there is suffering
Bring serenity
For those afraid
Help them be brave
Where there is misery
Bring expectancy
And surely we can change
Surely we can change
Something

HOME!!

So I went home last night, and let me tell you, it is soo good to be home.
I AM SOO THANKFUL!!!
@ Elevation this past Sunday, Pastor Furtick talked about THANK YOU and Gratitude.

I thank God for a lot of things, but I should be spending more and more time Thanking HIM for all that He has done (past, present and future) instead of more and more time asking Him to do things in my life.
Here are some things that I am THANKFUL FOR:

I thank God for His Son, Jesus Christ for His life, Death, and Ressurection.
I thank God for giving me parents who saw me on one of those adopt this kid flyers.
I thank God for my parents who prayed for me, and who adopted me from an orphanage in Colombia South America.
I thank God for my mom and dad who have raised me to stand up for Truth and The Gospel.
They have given me the tools and the wisdom to grow, and become a man. They encourage me to be myself, and to pursue my goals. I am thankful for the discipline that my parents are providing, even though we do not always see eye to eye.
I am thankful for their sacrifices, and their time.
and so much more
But I am MOST THANKFUL for THEIR LOVE!!!!
Mom, Dad, if you read this, THANK YOU!!

THANK YOU JESUS FOR YOUR LOVE
THANK YOU
THANK YOU
THANK YOU

My encounter with a Dying Girl....

so today was a day of joyful desperation. It started out rough. I went to bed around 2am, and got up around 6:30 again and went to class. I was just beaten, and tired. My week had been rough, and I was trying to catch up on sleep. Last week I worked 45 hours plus school, and this week has been rough as well.
The devil was really getting to my heart. He was telling me to just give up, and freak out. I was depressed this morning, and angry. I was just angry for no reason really, I guess because I was feeling sorry for my self.
But after my 8am class, my day started to get better.
I had to get away from the world yet again, and bask in Christ's presence. I canceled my workout, and just got down on my knees, and cried out to God. I read Psalm 51, and just let my heart be filled with the Holy Spirit. You ever have one of those days? I bet you have if you are a Christian. Those are the days that we really live for Christ if we re-focus on Him.
I put on some Shane and Shane, Jason Upton, Phil Whickham, and toped it off with Hillsong on the way to work.

Guys, I just yelled praises to God, and asked Him to help me get through the day. I called upon the Lord, to help me keep Satan at bay, and to focus on the Cross. He answered me! "My God is Mighty to Save"
There was this girl at work today, I believe her name was Hillary. She was six years old, and it was her first time at the Splash Park. This girl had a tumor in her brain that caused swelling in her face and body. She has the Doctors project 2-12months left to live.
This girl, despite the pain, and the confusion, had a blast today.
for about 4 hours, she played and played in the water with her friends. She went all out in the water. She went up and down the slide, around the lazy river, floated, ran under the sprinklers.
She really made me re-focus on the Cross.

I have no right to be angry with God, I have no real case to bring before Him. Here is a girl who is dying, and she is having the time of her life. I asked Hillary if she was having a blast and she said yes. I told her that Jesus loves her, but really it was God through Hillary's actions, and her eyes who was telling me that Jesus loves me.
AND PLUS, SHE IS GOING TO HEAVEN AND SHE GETS TO BE WITH HER DADDY!!
PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!! AMAZING GRACE!!!!!!

After that my day really got better. I grew up, and I have been praying and thanking God since.
I got to play with kids, and that always makes me feel better!

Plus, I have been singing the Chorus of this song all day! It brought me back to the Cross.

None But Jesus Lyrics (Hillsong United)

In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored

When You call I won’t refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos, in confusion
I know You’re Sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will

When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days

All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope, all of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord Forevermore


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=axqXMuW8x1U

Child Like Faith being jaded :(

Matthew 18:2-4

2He called a little child and had him stand among them. 3And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

The Little Children and Jesus

Mark 10:13-16

13People were bringing little children to Jesus to have him touch them, but the disciples rebuked them. 14When Jesus saw this, he was indignant. He said to them, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. 15I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." 16And he took the children in his arms, put his hands on them and blessed them.

So earlier this week while I was at work, on top of the blue comet slide, a bunch of kids from the YMCA in Huntersville came in. For some reason I was compelled to quiz them in math problems and faith questions. These kids were in grades 2-5th.
As I asked them about Church, and Jesus, I was shocked at their answers.
Most of them didnt know where they went to church, and did not go. I asked them if they wanted to go, and some of them did not like Church. That broke my heart gang. Now the ones who did like to go to Church, and knew Jesus, were fired up about all this Jesus talk.

Gang, we need to act now, more than ever. The Devil is grabbing these kids at a much younger age now. I believe it is the parents who have a huge part in this, but we need to go after these kids. Their Child Like faith has been jaded by Satan and the world. We need to show them the love, and to share the Gospel with them more than ever.

It just breaks my heart to see these kids so young, and so lost. They deal with a lot more junk at their age, then I did when I was their age. They are dealing with "adult" issues that they cannot understand and safely deal with.

We must be their proctors, their mentors. We must be their big brothers and sister. There is no time to waste. We as the body, have got to reach out the them. We have to reach them at their level, take them by the hand, and show them the way.

If we do not, who will?

I love Elevation's E-kidz. I am so thankful that God has given me the chance to serve these kids on Sunday's and to share with them the Gospel and Christ's love.
I pray that all Churches will do the same for these youngins.

"I Cannot Hide My Love" -WATERDEEP-

Note to Biblical Women (from Apr 16th 2007)

Hey, I have been listening to a lot of sermons on Biblical Womanhood, and the Beauty of a Woman. I can't tag all of you haha but spread this to your friends.
This is for women in general, but today, the LORD has lead me to write this for the single ones. (it can also apply to women struggling in relationships)

(ALSO, I tagged you ladies because The Lord told me to. There is nothing wrong with you or anything haha, I am just doing what The Lord told me to do). Maybe you already know this this stuff and thats fine, but maybe you have a friend who needs to be encouraged and some of this scripture may help)



1) Do not give up! Do not back down and settle for anything less that what God has in store for you. You are single for a reason, not because you are not beautiful, or you are damaged goods(GOD DOES NOT MAKE JUNK) or that you do not have what it takes.. You are Single because God is still working in you and you can better serve Him right now through your singleness.

Scripture says:
1 Corinthians 7:34
"An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord's affairs:
Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit"

2) Fight the emotional lust. Satan wants you to be distracted, and to focus on the fact that you are single, more than on what you can be doing for The Lord in your singleness. He[SATAN] will play with your emotions, and give you the desire to daydream about your husband. He will also give you the desire to want to focus on being in a relationship, and wanting to look for the right man at all times. Do not let him win. Also the World will tell you who you should date, and why, and what you should do to please your man. That is a bunch of crap. Only The Lord Most High has the right to tell you what you can/cannot do. Pray that God will give you strength to fight your flesh, and your emotions. God will give you the desires of your heart, if and only if they will Glorify Him.

Scripture says
Psalm 37:4
"Delight in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart"

Sisters, this, besides being God's beauty incarnate; is what defines you and makes you soo stinking attractive, and captivating.
PROVERBS 31:
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.

30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

3) Fear the Lord, continue to seek Him, and be clothed with strength and dignity. Therefore you can laugh at what the world tells you, and rest assured in Our Lord Jesus Christ.

Verses 25 and 30 explain why a Biblical woman is soo attractive.
You fear the Lord. You are intimate with Him. You seek Him, and put Him first.
A Biblical woman is soo beautiful because she embodies God's beauty. She desires to follow Him, and do His Will. She is running soo hard after Him, and she does not want to look back. When the time is right, look beside you for a man, not behind you!!! God will reveal when you are ready, the perfect man for you. You are clothing yourself with strength to stand up for your faith. You are clothing yourself with dignity so that God can work great works through you.

The most attractive thing about you is your walk with the LORD. Yes you are beautiful, and you are captivating, but it is the Lord who makes you this way.
The more you run after Him, the more beauty (God's beauty) will be revealed to you, and those around you!!

Finally I again urge you to not settle for anything convenient.
There may be a guy who is your ideal husband, and he may be a great friend of yours. He may be an outstanding man for the Lord. That is great, Praise God for putting a man like him in your life. But, get to know him as a brother first. God will give you wisdom, and direction on how to be friends. But you must pray, and pour out your heart to The Lord every day!!! He will tell you if this guy is the one for you. But you must be patient. Even if this guy is not the one for you, and you are hoping soo much that he will be your husband; REST IN THE FACT THAT GOD HAS SOMEONE BETTER, SOMEONE PERFECT FOR YOU,AND YOU ALONE!!!!!!

Continue to pray for your future husband, but do not focus on the here and now. Instead I encourage you to keep living for God like you have been living.

I respect you women because you are mighty in The Lord. You are strong, and mighty! Do NOT BACK OFF, DOMINATE!!! (your heart, your emotions, your walk with the Lord)

(Do not put all your hopes and dreams in to a biblical man, put them instead in Jesus Christ. For a Biblical man can guard your heart, and offer his strength, but it is your heart, and you must guard it. You must let God guard it first, before any man.)

Sorry this is soo long, and I just randomly wrote this note because the Spirit Led me
I do not care what you think, I know that I am right on this, and I am sure I'll catch some heat from my brothers in Christ, but Lets face it,

Guys if you read this, get your junk squared away first. DO NOT OFFER YOUR STRENGTH TO A WOMAN IF YOU ARE NOT WALKING SOUNDLY WITH THE LORD. Even if it is in friendship. Get your junk squared away, then you can step up and be a leader. I know these women, and they will not let you into their hearts until you can step up and be a Man for God.

Lastly, I am not perfect, I am a sinner like everybody else. But I do know the results first hand of focusing on your emotions, and what the world wants you to do.
Being Single is a Joy, and a privilege. I have soo much free time to do what The Lord wants me to do. THAT's THE POINT!!!

AMEN AND GOD BLESS!!!!

Joyful Desperation

"JOYFUL DESPERATION"
This sums up my walk wit the Lord in times of despair, and confusion.

This does not reflect the times when I know what God is doing in my life or When I know God\'s Will. This is not about when I am so stupid for Jesus lol.
That note will be so much more positive and bragging on how AWESOME GOD IS!!!

I do not have all the scripture that I want for this note, but if you think of any, please please post it here!! I want God\'s Words to be my words!!!

Joyful Desperation:

JOYFUL
I am so thankful for the death and resurrection of Christ. He is the Lord and Savior of my life, and I know that I cannot do great things, or even anything really without His Grace and Mercy. He is my sustainer, He is mighty to save. I am joyful in the Hope that I have in Christ when I am lost, confused, depressed, and in a state of shock because of my own sins. I can rejoice in the Hope that I have in Christ (Romans 5). I can rejoice in my Deliverer, and the intimacy I have with Christ!!!

Desperation:

I am restless/Desperate because I want to do things the way I want to do them,and when I want to. I get so impatient with God because I FEEl like I need the answers right away. I FEEL like I cannot live to see tomorrow without a definite clear cut answer from God ie a vision or a voice. I know that I screw up, and I know that I need Christ to show me the way. I know that He is perfect and all knowing, but sometimes I get so desperate for Him. Especially in times where I do not know what is going on, or where God wants me to go. Sometimes I get so crazy because there are 5 different paths to take, and I only want the Right one, the Perfect One. I only want God\'s best for me. But i get so worked up that I forget to stop and listen.

If that is you, do not be to glum. Do Just as Crowder sings about in this song:

Come and listen,
come and listen to what He\'s done.
Come and listen,
come and listen to what He\'s done.

Gang, God will deliver us, He will come through for us. The Bible is chocked full of how God rescues His Children from terror. He raises them up, and gives them life. He always keeps His promises, and He will always Love you. He is Mighty to Save, yes Jesus is Mighty to Save!!!

Just continue to pray for His will to be done in your life. Continue to cry out to Him and to ask for peace. God will reveal His will, and He always gives you direction.

Please talk with someone, and let them know how they can pray for you. We need intercessors in our lives to help us with our own junk.

Praise God for our brethren.

Jeremiah 29:11 (New International Version)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,\" declares the LORD, \"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I will be adding more scripture to this, so do not worry, this is still in a raw form.
God Bless!

ROMANS 8:38-39 NIV

38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

ASSURANCE

ISAIAH 54:10
10 Though the mountains be shaken
and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken
nor my covenant of peace be removed,"
says the LORD, who has compassion on you.

1 JOHN 5:14-15
14This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. 15And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.

BLESSINGS

PSALMS 31:19
19 How great is your goodness,
which you have stored up for those who fear you,
which you bestow in the sight of men
on those who take refuge in you.

COMFORT

2 CORINTHIANS 1:3-4
3Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.

PSALM 34:18
18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

COMPASSION

HOSEA 2:19
19 I will betroth you to me forever;
I will betroth you in righteousness and justice,
in love and compassion.

2 SAMUEL 22:2
2 He said:
"The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;

PSALM 34:17
17 The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them;
he delivers them from all their troubles.

PSALM 34:7
7 The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him,
and he delivers them.

PSALM 32:7
7 You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.

ENCOURAGEMENT

PSALM 10:17
17 You hear, O LORD, the desire of the afflicted;
you encourage them, and you listen to their cry,


I WILL POST MORE LATER :)

MyHeart goes out to the Homeless

so alot has been going on in my life latley. Over the past several months, God has showed me some homeless people in Charlotte to reach out. They have been reaching out to me as well, and God is really using them in my life. I have a different perspective on my life, and my walk with The Lord. God is moving mightily, and I am doing my best to keep up with HIM.
Randy is the main homeless guy that I work with. I feed him, give him clothes, and he comes to church with me. Wendell is another guy who is going through the same things. They are my brothers now, and I spend so much time with them, that they consider them family.

tonight my heart is broken for Randy, and Rick. They both live out in the woods, and some kids went and tore up their camp recently. They have tarps set up and what not, but its not enough. With no ID they cannot get a job, and with no ID it is hard for them to get a social securuity card. Right now they are in the rain somewhere, and I cannot find them. I have dropped off some blankets and clothes, but it is not enough. It is cold, wet, and dangerous out in that part of town.
I pray to God that He is watching over them, sending his angels to them to care and protect them.

Please pray not only for Rick and Randy, but all the other Homeless people who are out side in this weather who are fighting for their very lives day in and day out!
Pray that us Christians will get off our butts, and reach out the them, and give them the hope of Jesus Christ!!
We are not alone, but do the lost people know that? Do they know the Joy of having Christ as their Lord and Savior?
It is our job as it says in Luke to Seek and Save that Which is Lost!!

Luke 19:10"For the Son of Man came to seek and to save what was lost."

Amen